I know of the shame and the guilt, darkest of nights that tore
your innocence away. Dark secrets you were forced to keep that still
haunt you even today, things you cannot share even with the closest of
companions. I do understand the hurt and the pain that every man has
caused you. A beautiful sweet flower yet they trembled you under foot,
now you feel like a rose on the ground left to wither in the scorching
sun of contempt and bitterness. They all told you lies, one after the
other, reaping away a part of you as they ravaged through the garden
that is you and left, one after the other.
Kindness that only sought that which is between your thighs. The
only truth they told you is that you are beautiful yet they never
showed you just how much. They only saw an escape for their desires, an
object for their pleasures, satisfied they rolled over and fell asleep
but yours was not sleep but a deep darkness that fell over you time and
time again. Nights when you wished it was day and days that you wished
were nights without any comfort and after all you had no need of such
trivial things in life as comfort. I know and I do understand. Look what
they have done to you, they have taken every little star that used to
twinkle in your bright stunning eyes and made your smile as cold as the
heart that you carry. They have muted the sweet sound of giggles and
laughter in you now a dark silence prevails.
Your conscience blames you and you seek justification for all
that has happened to you that you think you have done. Everyone else
doesn’t know and if they knew they would judge you even without saying a
word but I understand and I know. Love is but a fantasy, a fragment of
one’s imagination and you dare not indulge in such a fantasy. The world
has told you that the greatest love of all is to love yourself, yes the
same world that hurt you, but you are still lonely left to your own
shadow for company in that conceited self love.
I know and I understand yet it doesn’t have to be that way. You
don’t have to shed another bitter tear or live with feelings of
resentment, guilt and regret. You don’t have to hide those demons of a
past so tainted and blemished- You don’t have to hold on to the pain!
You don’t need to rely on your own failing strength and carry a
shattered world on your shoulders. You need a friend, you need hope to
live again, you need a father, and you need a love that gives the peace
that you are seeking. I promise you there is going to be a brighter day
and there is One who has already created that day for you with thoughts
of love and most tender care just waiting for you to consider Him. His
name is Yeshua.
He knows and He understands far much more than what your reality assumes.....this I know!
by Mc N o r r i s
this is one of ur notes on fb rite? wow,you just spoke for millions of girls out there who dont have a voice and gave them hope as well!!
ReplyDeletethank u and yes it is! Hope so too! I knw of sm1 hu was really helpd by a 6 yr old post on sm1's blog. . .touchn!
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